Some thoughts-I guess you could call them... :)

Here is a previous thought:

I try. I really do. I sit down and think. I know I have feelings for you-so why can't I feel the buzz when you touch me? Why can't I feel the connection where my energy should be entwining with your energy?


(spellcheck)...No misspellings found...Sweet!


Now here is my present assessment:

Initially, you (the lover) might assume that there is something wrong with your energy. But really all this "energy" means is that you are comfortable with yourself. This "self comfort" is what creates the energy-as well as the desire to be with somebody else mentally and physically. It is normal to want to share this comfort with another person.

However, depending on how comfortable you are with yourself-first- will determine how strong this current of energy will be and how long it will be able to stretch out beyond yourself.

If you are truly uncomfortable with yourself there is no way that you are going to have enough energy to give it to another person. This also applies when sharing energy with another person. If your current is weak it will not be able to entwine with somebody else's current.

Once their energy reaches out you may reject it. This is simply because, upon accepting their energy brings you to have to create your own energy and therefore face accepting yourself. If you do not like you for who you are, there is no way that you are going to completely let somebody else like you for who you are.

You might be turned off by such a person, that can be interested in someone(you) that you don't find to be "fit" or "good enough". You may figure that they are settling. This is because, when you do not like yourself you are no longer a part of yourself. You will split yourself in two in order to almost "get away from the "real you". You judge yourself as though your "real self" and your "judgemental self" are two different people. Hence, your judgmental person thinks that if you were in the other persons shoes you'd also be settling.

The judgemental part of you will keep the person who loves the real you from ever getting to really have the "real you". The "judgemental you" does not believe that the "real you" is disciplined or good enough for the person that wants to love you (no matter how great or how lousy that other person is) Although, it is undeniable that the "real you", despite the "judgemental you", really does love the other person.

However, until the "judgemental you" accepts the "real you" and the "real you" stops taking crap from the "judgmental you" can these "yous" really morph into one "you". And quite frankly, one "you" is the healthiest amount of "yous" that you can have.

Once you are singular, your motives will be singular-you will not hold yourself back and you will be able to let others love and admire you because you will see that such love and acceptance toward you is plausible. On top of this, your own singular motives will lack double meaning therefore creating pure intentions. When you stop worrying about yourself you can move on to care about other people and offer them your compassion.